His Perfect Will

If you don't know me in real life, let me tell you a little bit about me! I grew up in Mansfield, TX, a small (but fast growing) town outside of Fort Worth. I graduated from Mansfield High School in 2008 and started classes at Texas A&M University that fall. I graduated from A&M in May 2012 with a degree in Math and Science Education.

I, like most college grads, fully expected to have a job right out of college. I applied for countless numbers of jobs, and was severely disappointed when all my peers were receiving calls for interviews while I was still waiting to hear from one school. I finally received a call from a Dallas ISD school wanting me to interview for a 4th grade position. I was so nervous! My first interview went pretty well, I think. I don't remember much of it at all. I drove back down to College Station (I was living in CS for the summer) and sometime in the same week I received a call for another interview, this time in Red Oak. I drove back to DFW and interviewed for a 5/6th grade math position. This interview, I remember, went really well. So well that they had me interview with the curriculum director of the district. I went back to CS and sometime that week, I got a call from the Dallas school offering me the position. I didn't pray about it, I didn't talk to Tom about it, I just decided that the first job I got offered is the one I should take. To make this long story a little bit shorter, the entire thing fell through. It was really sketchy and I thank God every day that I did not end up at that school.

That doesn't mean that I didn't still want a classroom. I had 6 or so more interviews, which led to my tutoring position at Farrell Elementary in Arlington. This job was such a blessing. I was in 3rd grade (a little young for me) helping prep the kids for their upcoming STAAR test. I started at the end of October and finished at the end of April. I learned so incredibly much while working at Farrell. I learned all about Response To Intervention (RTI), strategies for teaching language arts and reading. I am so thankful for the team I worked with at Farrell. They helped me become a much better teacher and I don't know where I would be without them!

Now it's the end of the school year and I'm seeing all my peers from A&M talking about packing up their classrooms and how they feel about it being the end of the year and here I am, still jobless, not sure where I'll be next year, not knowing where Tom and I will be living. I am having to choose to think positively about this! I cannot let Satan get a grip on my mind and let me think that I am not good enough to be a teacher, that I won't get a job, that nobody wants me. I have to rely on my knowledge of God, that His perfect will cannot be thwarted, that He has a plan for me and it is far greater than anything I could ever imagine. I have to know that He is making me wait because there is something out there that is meant for me. I have to remember that God's timing is perfect. I have to continue to pray for His guidance, that He will lead me to the place that I am meant to be. My favorite verse that has helped me so much during this entire process is Exodus 14:14 "The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." I find so much comfort in the fact that my God is bigger than anything in this world and that He fights for me every second of every day! Thank You, LORD, for Your amazing promise to fight for me!!